I knew that these last 2 sessions were going to focus on how NOT to revert to the old me - the stressful, overwhelmed me who feels like there isn’t enough time in a day (or a week or a month) to get EVERYTHING done that I’ve committed myself to. And since my life will consist of 15-hour days, with a one hour break, 5 days a week - starting tomorrow - AND I have to move on top of it AND go to weddings and spend time with family and sacrifice my coaching time…….there’s no time to breathe. I don’t want to lose sleep, and get sick, and become a hermit and not see my friends. I want the show that I’m doing to be amazing because, if it’s terrible and I put so much of myself in it, I’ll be nothing but bitter and crazed and bitchy for no good reason at all.

So I’m going to stop and breathe. And make sleep my priority. And make sure that I learn how to say NO to myself (and I thought it was tough telling other people!). I need to take care of myself and put everything that I’ve worked so hard on with Joanne to the test. This IS my test! My ultimate test to how I put myself first, and say no, and prioritize my life and fill my time like it’s my own. Because it is my own. And I chose these choices. And I’ll choose how my time is balanced and my life is lived. And I’ll do it without the stress (OK, maybe some stress) or the bitching (OK, maybe a little bitching) because, I mean, I booked a show and that makes me happy. And who else can say that they have a great job, and they’re doing exactly what they want to do with their own time. I can.

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Can’t you tell what I’m gracious for now? If not, read the last line above.